Something is missing and incomplete..
Think about the edge you lost after Ramadan??
Or after the highest faith level you flew for??
When i feel that i keep getting numb and can’t do anything ab out it..and the more i can’t the more it builds up inside me to the stage where i can’t take it any more..
I wanna enhance and improve..
I wanna earn my place closer to allah..
I wanna get this sense of purity and fulfillment when i think that the more i approach allah the more he’ll accept me and love me and keep my heart peaceful and safe..
The problem is..we always do that that it became a pattern..we always run after everything and everyone for that sense of security and giving and when we fail to have it or even have it but fail to maintain it..we ache and cry then realize at one moment that we have no other way but Allah’s way to bat on this heart and revive it’s peace again..
This amazing comfort is so wonderful that it can make this painful pulse that alerts my being with lively troubles and burdens..a soothing vibe..
And oh how i need that soothing feeling to fill my heart..that troubled heart of mine..
Allah gives everyone..but gives special serenity to those who ask and plea and cry for it..
It may come with a messenger..another human that can give with Allah’s will..
Or it may come without anyone..or any reason..directly from allah..a bolt of light clarifying your cells with faithful joy and relaxation..as you’ve reached the clouds of faith..
May allah bless me and you with theآ most precious gift of all….his love!!
Allah knows…i’ve missed it…………………………………………………….آ