I’ve always believed that finding love isn’t about trial…Isn’t about hitting every road available and hoping one could lead you home!
I’ve always thought it’s an act of nature…It’s like being struck by lightning…unpredictable, incomprehensible and unexpected.
I’ve always been a believer but recently a good friend of mine tried to talk some sense ( his sense ) out of me and tried to convince me that in order to get something good I gotta start using my head and giving my heart a couple of years vacation! and his proof was : look what your heart brought you! nothing but misery !
I objected…tried to prove my point and there was no way I could get to him so it back fired at me and i started listening to his opinion.
He sees it as a mind game…where I’d go for whoever loves me and would take care of my needs and I would shove the fact that he is no hunk away!
We discussed the three or four options I have at hand and I decided to give one a chance or else give myself a chance to think of things differently…
I agreed we’d meet and talk…he’s a nice guy and seems more than interesting…I kept looking at him…trying to imagine ending up with him…I’m sorry to say that but the whole thing was repulsive.
The minute we began to talk about marriage inآ general…I couldn’t say but the truth…I said that although i never thought this way before cause i know I’m too passionate to stay single…I’ve been seriously thinking lately of being the mom that i am only and give all i have to my kids!
It wasn’t nice for him to hear…but i felt relief that i have said it…I had to respect him as i thought that committing to someone that i have no great feelings of loveآ for that would make me want to spend the rest of life with is a crime towards him and myself.
Returning to my friend, I was more powerful…proved my point stating that it maybe good for others…But not me!!
I know how I am and what I’m all about.
And nowآ I’mآ positive more than ever that if i never got struck by lightning it’ll be OK…I can have tons of little hugs from my kiddos…and life will pass anyway.