I realized yesterday during Iftar that it’s easier to change the world than to change someone or even yourself.
When you have a cause and you aim to change poverty, injustice or ignorance you can have some result if you’re devoted enough…
But you can change your nature not even with the help of the worldly humans accompanied by demons…we are what we are and there’s no way around it.
During that totally UNNECESSARY Iftar I realized I would never be less passionate even if i do continue making a fool out of myself every time I speak my heart out to some frigid people.
Delusional is the answer and the only explanation.
When will I stop???
That’s me and i gotta live with that!
Today, I woke up feeling sick of my whole history of childish blinded passion that fails to let me be fair with myself and save me any humiliation which is mainly caused by my own cruel hands…After a while I realized that such nature need to be directed at all time towards some common cause…anything other than something personal….I would do wonders and there’s no doubt about that.
It’s not enough to have my energy directed towards my kids, myself and some occasional social work nor even towards knowledge and a career i strive to attain.
I should exhaust my spirit towards more Important Issues…something powerful that would drain me and leave me satisfied that I’m doing something more productive with my thoughts and emotions.
Channels and Ideas will blossom…because I’ll do all i can to seek them.
In Sha2 Allah.آ