It didn’t cross my mind for one second that I will have anything special on my birthday except for a few nice wishes on face book and a couple of text messagesâ€¦as for my kids, I always get a blast being around their little cards and presents, the sweetest thing ever…I didn’t think about it, plan it or even felt anything related to the fact that I’m turning 35 in a few hours…yesterday that is 🙂
I, and as some sort of a resolution of the past years, 35 is a milestone you know the mid thirtiesâ€¦closer to the wonderful forties and far from the insignificant twenties, have been making plans and decisions and point out some thoughts all day long.
I declined a very tempting Job offer abroadâ€¦It wasn’t difficult really as I’ve always known about myself that I love every bit of Egypt to the extent that I never enjoyed a trip more than two weeks before home sickness strike.
Never in my life have I had a friend that would spend much thought, time and effort to do something special for meâ€¦NEVER! And I never thought I would start meeting one now, noting that very very few people surprise me, Insomniac has astonished me with her kindness and her sweet giving natureâ€¦yet there were sweet bonuses as well, kind friends who went along and shared their kindness as well, although I doubt anyone would say no to Inso even If they wanted to J.( D, Eno, G& Will…thank you )
A well planned surprise party was thrown for me and it was the least expectedâ€¦I tried to control the little girl in me who wanted to jump up and down or crack into tears of joy so, I just seemed a little bit stunned yet after a while ebtadeet ahayes bera7ty.
I started miscounting my wishesâ€¦I thought they were about 13 but I remembered only sixâ€¦most important note was that I was glad to discover that I don’t fear dreamingâ€¦no matter how Impossible or silly my dream was.
A couple more decisions were set to be made before midnightâ€¦and, I made them according to my convenience and comfort more than per people’s expectations!!!
Strange to feel and strange for people to understand how their day to day repeated casual events mean so much to you simply because at one point in time you were off track for one reason on anotherâ€¦that you missing on the silliest absurdness caused something sore, which leads to another conclusion: enough explaining, enough blabbering and enough over enthusiasmâ€¦I’ll call that phase off and let whoever understands be my guest and whoever not be most welcomed.
I will not change my hair into black to create a shocking attentive lookâ€¦let me be as neutral and natural as I amâ€¦
Later on that night I realized thatâ€¦having someone look you in the eye and declaring his love to you is the most touching feeling one could ever feel and that has a toll on the heartâ€¦even if both pulses didn’t quiet rhyme.
Returning home to a little face and a pair of little arms hugging you with love, need and affection is heart warming to the extent that at such moments everything else in life seems meaningless and fakeâ€¦as no one is capable of exchanging such strong harmonious loveâ€¦unconditional love.
I learned to believe in myselfâ€¦I learned the hard wayâ€¦god, it was hardâ€¦but now, that this is dealt withâ€¦I’m enjoying how it tastes to have of faith in people around meâ€¦yes, I will forever believe in goodness in both men or womenâ€¦.as virtues are always a right we should demand.
Today, and after my 4 am decision that i’m not going to work today, I decided to stay in bed…spend quality time with mom and some more time with my kidsâ€¦I had a great conversation with my mom as I shared events in my life with herâ€¦in detailsâ€¦it was sooo goodâ€¦and although I still worked online, it felt niceâ€¦now I’m expecting my babies shortly returning from school and I’m anticipating their cute birthday partyâ€¦I’m also looking forward for another treat tomorrowâ€¦a musical one J
Happy 35 Th birthday to meâ€¦Happy year to come for my kidsâ€¦people I love and good people around the world J