Backstage…DEATH !

Asalam 3alaykom,

As sad and shocked..i am also hyper and rebillous and i want to say what i never thought i would say..what every normal girl would hide..i want to scream itآ so loud..i want to write it in a paper and stick it on foreheads..Don’t mind the longest post you’ve ever read…but it’s now or never!!!

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And because i trust you..and i wish if i can make all the thousands that may pass by jeeran read this..and have the same eye opener that i have..

Today..i’m backstaging about:: my uncle’s death..

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Early,this morning ..right after i prayed dawn..my brother called and told me the news..i was lonely and i felt so so scared,death rocks me..terrifies me..for the deceased and for myself!!

As i waited for the car to arriveآ i wrote the previous post..i couldn’t cry..but i had this sharp pain in my heart..the car came and i had my two cousins with me..they were as stunned..

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My uncle..may allah’s mercy be upon him..was the most handsome man inآ  the family and probably i know of..he had theآ appearance of french movie stars..he purchased his outfits from fashion houses in paris and italy..very fit and healthy.mid fourties.

He was marriedآ to a great lady who adored him and they were given two lovely boys age 13 and 12..and a little one year old girl..he has five older brothers and a very old mom who had him as her buddy and sonآ ..

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He is the only musician other than my dad..he is not famous to public but within the field..and he did it only for money..the several thousands that he would make in one week and would make him give his family a great life..he tried more than once to leave..he failed to make any kind of business,and he would always return..

He feared allah but couldn’t change his life for good..

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The night he died..and i say this with great great sadness..he was playing on stage in a hotel..suddenly he dropped dead…Can you imagine what the band..the guests..the performer felt??

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I arrived at his mother’s house,she was in …i can’t describe how she was..no hysterical..but just unreal…the moment she saw me and i saw her she cried my name in a way that made all the rivers of sadness flow..i revealed my shock and my pain..from loosing him..and from fearing for him!!

I loved him..he liked me a lot..and he would praise me by saying…american angel..then would smile and say: no..there are no such angels in america..and he would make my heart fly…i never saw him much..he spent most his life in italy and paris,then came to settle after marriage but also..he is always on the run..

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His wife and his sister came..they were more devistated than his mom..i knew how much he meant to everyone,his wife loved him beyond love..she used to say that he is her dream come true..she couldn’t just take the pain..i couldn’t say one word but la illah ila allah..through my flooded quiet tears..

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It was time to go to the hospital..i arrived to see piles of people every where..every group indecate that there is a death in their family…then came our turn..i looked around..whereآ are my uncles..where are my brother..where are the men of the family.??

Couldn’t see but:::: the familiar faces of musicians..some areآ  well known,some are semi famous and some are not but i can tell who they were…they were confused..crying..couldn’t see infront of them!!!!!!!! numb..yet sad..they stood there not knowing what to do..

I got angry..where are elshoyookh bto3na?? feenak ya shiekh 3aly..my brother??

Who will say lots of do3aa2..take care of his kids?/ just be there!!! the things that men do!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAh..they were at home.!!!!..the preformer came..tried to comfort his wife who was crying like hell..atareeha had the same experience ..on ly…her boy never got to see his dad….i looked at her,i knew her but didn’t see her since the last time i saw a show eight years ago..she knew me and huged me and was very nice and simple ..infact too simple..she seemed kind..infact too kind!!!

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The funeral car took him..we drove behind him till the mosque where we should pray on him after noon prayers..and there i found my dad..in a state ..i never saw him like that in my whole life and i read a certain look in his eyes..like he’s telling me: i’m ten years older,unfitt and sick!!!

I just kept kissing his hands..kissing his hands..i didn’t want to stop but he would pull it away,i wonder why do they always do that… ya baba let me have your hand..we had an argument two days ago and i felt so so so guilty after this..al7amdlelah..he was lovingآ and raddy 3anny..

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The mosque is in midtown..a great number of people were arriving every second and the passing cars were interested in knowing what are these big number of black BMWs and Mercedes doing lining up like this..a lot of famous artists were arriving…people were gathering more and more…untill…and to my great surprise..came a glowing man breaking the crowds..dressed in a suit that is all printed in flowers,did you guess?? yes he is!!

oo eeeeeeeeeehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

why and how?? we were all stunned but what happened after that really changed my whole view of everything…i swear: thousands..were gathering inآ  a matter of minutes..i found myself squashed by human tides..me and my cousins held eachother tight..we were standing next to my dad’s car..our car was parked far..we couldn’t walk there men elza7ma…

all those people were laughing..talking about my dad..and the glowing man…faking that they were relatives of myDEAD UNCLE..to get a hand shake from glowy orآ  dad..or the preformer who suffered in and out of the mosque from the men in the street who actually climbed a near by tree to get a good look!!!!!

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AT this point…it was so so so mad that the two way roadآ stopped and was full of people..after almost fainting from heat and kicked and knocked from haza altagamhor alraheeb…the police came..took them 30 minutes to make all the crowd walk away..stillآ we would find groups of them near by..i over heared what???

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ASL ELMAYET MASHHOOR 7AYE3MELOLO FARA7..and giggles

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and someone who plays mr. i know it all: pointing at me and saying: look at this covered woman ..she isآ ” my dad’s” wife..

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All the laughter and talk made me sick…what kind of humans have we become..is this death?? do we feel any compassion at all??

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Again..lots of artists..several were smoking pot in the street..Kissing in the street..3ady..mana yama ghele6 w tobt w ghele6 tany w tobt…w lesa w lesa..bas the question is untill when??.iآ see that starnge man who is deliberetly beykhbat feena…آ ..my blood preasure is going up and up and up..that i almost hit him,but i found my dady’s driver coming to our rescue and he and the performers bodyguard kept watching us till the end…i almostآ left and skipped the prayer but the profound sadness in his son’s eyes made me pin myself to the pavement till they called for prayer..

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Thank allah i prayed on him…thank allah i was there to hold his wife,kids and who ever i could help as much as i could..

Thank allah i never stopped do3a2 and prayers..

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It was a nightmare,that i watched and lived at the same time..we drove behind his car to the Were he is buried…they went in to bury him..i stayed in the car..cause it’s not sunnah for women..then went home..

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We all went home..maybe hurt and sad and shocked..but we returned home……he didn’t…he is being asked..his qiamah began…and i was scared..so scared that i couldn’t say a word but do3a2 while i was thinking about what i saw today..

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What kind of life is this..what kind of death is that..

How can artists live normally after today…or ..do they see that but just can’t walk away..like he couldn’t..Are they scared like i am?

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They even looked at me in a demeaning way cause i was the onlyone covered up untill they saw me in the BMWآ then they started smilling at me…in the funeral!!!!!!!!!!!!

And artists who didn’t know me, had others pointng me to them as a kind of torfah..ahhhhhh bent folan elfolany…yaaaaaaah!!

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What scale??

What makes us worthwhile??

Is the thousands wel gaw elmawboo2 worth it??

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I feel so guilty for wanting things from life…i feel so guilty that i keep thinking about my needs… i asked myself..is death bigger than life that we should give it up to save our necks after we die?? then i would remember what i know from quran and sunnah…

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Ya rab..allahuma arrena al7aq 7aqa..wal ba6el ba6ela…

Ya rab a7sen khatematana…ya rab taqabalna fe 3ebadek alsale7een..

Ya rab la tametna 2ela wa anta radden 3ana..

Ya rab na7no aldo3afaa2 2elayk

Ya rab!!

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16 thoughts on “Backstage…DEATH !

  1. Assalamo Alikom.

    I can fully understand how you feel, Many people fake it Caller , la 7awla wala kowata ella bellah.

    Caller: I recal the prophet’s 7adeeth that said: The meaning: If a 100 people gather up and pray on a dead and ask God truly for having mercy and forgiveness on him will grant him what they asked God for.

    May God have mercy on his soul , mercy on his family , mercy on you and all the people.
    Ameen.

    Stay in peace , and may God help us all.

    Truly , Fadi.

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  2. ظ„ط§ط­ظˆظ„ ظˆظ„ط§ ظ‚ظˆط© ط§ظ„ط§ ط¨ط§ظ„ظ„ظ‡ ط­ط³ط¨ظٹ ط§ظ„ظ„ظ‡ ظˆظ†ط¹ظ… ط§ظ„ظˆظƒظٹظ„..

    ظٹط§ط§ط®طھظٹ ط¹ظ†ط¯ظٹ ظ„ظƒظٹ ظƒظ„ط§ظ… ظƒط«ظٹط±..

    ط£ظˆظ„ط§, ط¨ط§ظ„ظ†ط³ط¨ط© ظ„ط¹ظ…ظƒ ط§ظ„ظ„ظ‡ ظٹط±ط­ظ…ظ‡ ظˆظ†ظˆط± ظ‚ظ„ط¨ظ‡ ظˆظٹظˆط³ط¹ ط¯ط±ط¨ظ‡ ط§ظ…ظٹظ†..ط§ظ„ظ„ظٹ طµط§ط±, ط­طµظ„ ظˆط§ظ†طھظ‡ظ‰, ط±ط¨ظ…ط§ ظ„ظ… طھظƒظ† ط®ط§طھظ…طھظ‡ ظƒظ…ط§ ظ†طھظ…ظ†ظ‰, ظˆظ„ظƒظ† طµط¯ظ‚ظٹظ†ظٹ, ط±ط­ظ…ط© ط§ظ„ظ„ظ‡ ظˆط³ط¹طھ ظƒظ„ ط´ظٹط،, ط§ظ„ط­ظ…ط¯ظ„ظ„ظ‡ ط§ظ† ط§ظ„ظ„ظ‡ ط°ظˆ ط§ظ„ط¬ظ„ط§ظ„ ظˆط§ظ„ط§ظƒط±ط§ظ… ظ‡ظˆ ط§ظ„ط°ظٹ ط³ظٹط­ط§ط³ط¨ظ†ط§, ظˆط§ظ„ظ„ظ‡ ط¹ظپظˆ ظƒط±ظٹظ…, طµط¯ظ‚ظٹظ†ظٹ ط§ظ„ظ„ظ‡ ظٹط؛ظپط± ط§ظ„ط°ظ†ظˆط¨ ط¬ظ…ظٹط¹ط§ ط§ظ„ط§ ط§ظ„ط´ط±ظƒ, ظˆط§ظ„ط­ظ…ط¯ظ„ظ„ظ‡ ط¹ظ…ظƒ ظ…ط§طھ ظˆظ‡ظˆ ظ…ط¤ظ…ظ† ط¨ط§ظ„ظ„ظ‡..ظ„ط§طھط­ط²ظ†ظٹ,ط§ط·ظ„ط¨ظٹ ظ„ظ‡ ط§ظ„ط±ط­ظ…ظ‡ ظˆط§ظ„ظ„ظ‡ ظƒط±ظٹظ…. طµط¯ظ‚ظٹظ†ظٹ ط§ظ„ظ„ظ‡ ظٹط³طھط¬ظٹط¨ ط§ظ„ط¯ط¹ط§ط،. ط§ط¯ط¹ظٹ ظˆظƒظˆظ†ظٹ ظ…طھط£ظƒط¯ط© ظ…ظ† ط§ط³طھط¬ط§ط¨ط© ط§ظ„ظ„ظ‡.
    ظˆطµط¯ظ‚ظٹظ†ظٹ ط§ظ„ظ„ظ‡ ط±ط­ظٹظ… ط¨ط¹ط¨ط§ط¯ظ‡ , ظˆط§ظ„ظ„ظ‡ ط±ط­ظٹظ… ط¨ط§ظ„ط¹ط¨ط§ط¯ ط£ظƒط«ط± ظ…ظ† ط§ظ„ط¹ط¨ط§ط¯ ط§ظ†ظپط³ظ‡ظ…

    ط£ظ…ط§ ط¨ط§ظ„ظ†ط³ط¨ط© ظ„ظ„ط°ظٹظ† ط­ط¶ط±ظˆ ط§ظ„ط¬ظ†ط§ط²ط©, ظ‡ظ… ط¨ط´ط±, ظˆط¨ط¹ط¯ ط®ظ…ط³ظٹظ† ط³ظ†ط© ظ…ظ† ط§ظ„ط§ظ† ط³ظٹظƒظˆظ† ظ…ط¹ط¸ظ…ظ‡ظ… ظپظٹ ط¹ط¯ط§ط¯ ط§ظ„ط§ظ…ظˆط§طھ, ظپظ„ط§ طھط­ط²ظ†ظٹ, ظˆظ„ط§ طھط؛ط¶ط¨ظٹ, ظˆظ„ظƒظ† طھطµط±ظپظٹ ظƒظ…ط§ طھطµط±ظپ ط§ظ„ظ…طµط·ظپظ‰ ط¹ظ„ظٹظ‡ ط§ظ„طµظ„ط§ط© ظˆط§ظ„ط³ظ„ط§ظ…..ط§ط·ظ„ط¨ظٹ ظ„ظ‡ظ… ط§ظ„ظ‡ط¯ط§ظٹط©, ظ‡ظ… ط¬ط§ظ‡ظ„ظˆظ†, ط§ظ„ظ„ظ‡ ظٹظ‡ط¯ظٹظ‡ظ….ظˆظٹظ‡ط¯ظٹظ†ط§, ط£ظ…ظٹظ†

    ط£ظ…ط§ ط£ط®ط± ط´ظٹط،, ظپط£ظ†طھظٹ ظ…ط³ط¦ظˆظ„ط© ظ…ظ† ظˆط§ظ„ط¯ظƒ, ظˆط§ظ„ظ„ظ‡ ط³ظٹط­ط§ط³ط¨ظƒ ط¹ظ†ظ‡..ط¯ط§ط¦ظ…ط§ ط§ط¯ط¹ظٹ ظ„ظ‡, ظˆط¯ط§ط¦ظ…ط§ ط°ظƒط±ظٹظ‡ ط¨ط§ظ„ظ„ظ‡ ط¹ط²ظˆط¬ظ„..ظˆط¨ط§ط¨ ط§ظ„طھظˆط¨ط© ظ…ظپطھظˆط­..ط§ظ„ظ„ظ‡ ظٹظپطھط­ ط¹ظ„ظٹظ†ط§ ط¬ظ…ظٹط¹ط§

    ظ„ط§طھط­ط²ظ†ظٹ..ط§ظ„ط¯ظ†ظٹط§ ظ„ط§طھط³طھط­ظ‚ ط§ظ† ظٹط­ط²ظ† ط¹ظ„ظٹظ‡ط§ ط§ظ„ط§ظ†ط³ط§ظ†..ظˆط§ظ†ط´ط§ظ„ظ„ظ‡ ط£ط®ط± ط§ظ„ط§ط­ط²ط§ظ†..طµط¯ظٹظ‚ظٹظ†ظٹ ط§ظ„ط¯ظ†ظٹط§ ظƒظ„ظ‡ط§ ظ„ظ‡ظˆ ظˆظ„ط¹ط¨ ط³ط§ط¹ط© ظ…ط´ ط£ظƒط«ط±, ظˆط¨طھظ…ط± ظˆظ†طھظ‡ظٹ ط¨ط·ط±ظپط© ط¹ظٹظ†

    ط§ظ†طھظٹ ظ…ط¤ظ…ظ†ط© ط¨ط§ظ„ظ„ظ‡ , ظˆط§ظ†ط§ ط¹ظ„ظ‰ ظٹظ‚ظٹظ† ط§ظ†ظƒ ط±ط­ طھطھط¬ط§ظˆط²ظٹ ظ‡ط°ظٹ ط§ظ„ظ…ط­ظ†ط© ط§ظ†ط´ط§ظ„ظ„ظ‡, ظˆظ„ط§ط²ظ… طھظƒظˆظ†ظٹ ظ‚ظˆظٹط© ط£ظƒط«ط± ظ„ط§ظ†ظˆ ظ…ظ† ظˆط§ط¬ط¨ظƒ ط§ظ„ظˆظ‚ظˆظپ ط¨ط¬ط§ظ†ط¨
    ط£ظ‡ظ„ ط§ظ„ظ…ط±ط­ظˆظ… ط¨ط¥ط°ظ† ط§ظ„ظ„ظ‡

    ظˆط§ظ†ط§ ظ„ظ„ظ‡ ظˆط§ظ†ط§ ط§ظ„ظٹظ‡ ط±ط§ط¬ط¹ظˆظ†

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  3. Caller 7abibti,
    you say: "Don’t mind the longest post you’ve ever read…but it’s now or never!!!", what are you talking about lady? you’ve got a point, a profound thought that has to be declared to others, and I’m glad you shared it o jazaki Allaho 5ayran. I know how sad it was for you, but unfortunately, unfortunately and unfortunately the human ignores the fact that life is a passage and not an ultimate aim dear!
    I’m so proud of you, I just know how it sounds to be of the few covered around or even the only one in some cases, while everybody is staring as if you were an alien; I’ve been in similar situations. Let them, you found your path, still they didn’t, but all that can be said is: "Allah yehdehom" and inshallah they will find their path, just as you did sweetheart, plus we have to make do3a2 for ommet Al-Islam to find its way towards Allah.
    May Allah have mercy on your dead uncle and since ramadan is coming it’s a great chance for supplications, you can even do 7aj for him and make sadaqat on his soul.
    At last but not at least; enjoy listening to "ظ„ظٹط³ ط§ظ„ط؛ط±ظٹط¨", I love it, it exprsses completely the states you were talking about: http://www.islamway.com/?iw_s=Nasheed&iw_a=view&songstape_id=172.
    I’ll just stand still by your side and tell everybody that death is a reminder and it’s a perfect chance for people to repent!
    P.S: Inshallah I’ll post something today, something I know you will like and I’ll dedicate it to you especially.
    Leave you in peace and blessings from Allah and thanks again for sharing those thoughts, 3sana na3taber…

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  4. I am so sorry to hear what you had to go through, it must have been a terrible experience. Allah ysame7hom..

    please God have mercy on our beloved ones whom are with you now. All my prayers to you and your family.

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  5. ط§ظ„ط³ظ„ط§ظ… ط¹ظ„ظٹظƒظ…..
    ظپط§ط¯ظ‰..
    ط¬ط²ط§ظƒ ط§ظ„ظ„ظ‡ ظƒظ„ ط®ظٹط±
    ط¢ظ…ظٹظ†..

    ط®ظ„ظپ..
    ط§ظ‡ظ„ط§ ط¨ظٹظƒ..ط§ظ„ظ„ظ‡ ظٹط¨ط§ط±ظƒ ظ„ظƒ

    ط¹ط¨ط¯..
    ط§ظˆظ„ط§ ط¬ط²ط§ظƒ ط§ظ„ظ„ظ‡ ط®ظٹط± ظ„ط§ظ‡طھظ…ط§ظ…ظƒ..ظˆ ط§ظ„ظ„ظ‡ ط§ظ†ظƒ ط§ظ†ط³ط§ظ† ظ…ط¹ط·ط§ط، ظˆ طھط­ط³ ط¨ط§ظ„ط§ط®ط±ظٹظ†..
    ظˆ ط§ظ†ط§ ط§ظ‚ظˆظ„ ط§ظ„ظ„ظ‡ظ… طھظ‚ط¨ظ„ ظƒظ„ ط¯ط¹ط§ط¦ظƒ ظ„ط¹ظ…ظ‰ ط±ط­ظ…ظ‡ ط§ظ„ظ„ظ‡..
    ط¯ط¹ظ†ظ‰ ظپظ‚ط· ط§ظˆط¶ط­ ط´ظ‰ط، ط¬ط§ظٹط² ظ…ط§ ظˆط¶ط­طھظˆط´ ظپظ‰ ط§ظ„ط¨ظˆط³طھ ظ„ط§ظ†ظپط¹ط§ظ„ظ‰:
    ظ…ظ† ظپط¶ظ„ ط§ظ„ظ„ظ‡ ط¹ظ„ظٹط§ ط§ظ†ظ‰ ظ„ط§ ط§ظ†ط¸ط± ظ„ظ„ظ†ط§ط³ ظ…ظ† ظپظˆظ‚..ظ„ط³ط¨ط¨ظٹظ†..ط§ظˆظ„ط§ ظ„ط§ظ†ظ‰ ظٹط§ظ…ط§ ط§ط°ظ†ط¨طھ ط°ظ†ظˆط¨ ظ„ظˆ ظ„ظ… ظٹط³طھط±ظ†ظ‰ ط§ظ„ظ„ظ‡ ظپظٹظ‡ط§ ط­طھظ‰ طھط¨طھ ظ„ظ…ط§ ط±ط¶ظٹطھ ط§ظ†طھ ط§ظ† طھط­ظƒظ‰ ظ…ط¹ظ‰ ط§ظ„ظٹظˆظ…..ظپط§ظ„ظ‡ط¯ط§ظٹظ‡ ظ…ظ† ط§ظ„ظ„ظ‡..
    ط«ط§ظ†ظٹط§..ظ„ط§ظ† ط§ظ„ظ„ظ‡ ظ…ظ† ط¹ظ„ظ‰ ط¨ظ‚ظ„ظٹظ„ ظ…ظ† ظپظƒط± ط§ظ„ط¯ط¹ظˆظ‡ ط§ظ„ط°ظ‰ ظ„ط§ ظٹظپط§ط±ظ‚ظ†ظ‰ ط§ط¨ط¯ط§..ظˆ ظƒظ„ظ…ط§ ظ‚ط¯ط±طھ ظ‚ظ…طھ ط¨ظ‡ ظ…ط¹ ط§ظ‡ظ„ظ‰ ظˆ ظ…ط¹ ط§ظ‰ ط§ظ†ط³ط§ظ† ظٹظ…ظƒظ† ط§ط­طھظƒ ط¨ظٹظ‡..
    ظ„ظƒظ† ..ظ†ط­ظ† ظ„ظ†ط§ ط¸ط§ظ‡ط± ظ…ط§ ط§ط°ط§ ط±ط§ظٹظ†ط§ظ‡ ظٹط¬ط¨ ط§ظ† ظ†ط¹طھط¨ط± ظˆ ظ†ظپظƒط±..ظˆ ظ‡ط°ط§ ظ…ط§ ط§ط±ط¯طھ ظ†ظ‚ظ„ظ‡ ظ‡ظ†ط§..
    ظٹط¹ظ†ظ‰ ط§ظ„ط§ط¹ط°ط§ط± ط¹ظ†ط¯ظ‰..ظ„ظƒظ† ط¹ظ†ط¯ ط·ط±ط­ ط§ظ„ظ…ظˆط¶ظˆط¹ ظٹط¬ط¨ ط§ظ† ط§ط¶ط¹ ظ…ط§ ط±ط§ظٹطھ ط§ظ…ط§ظ… ط¹ظٹظ†ظ‰ ظƒظ…ط§ ظ‡ظˆ ظ„ط§ظ† ظ…ط§ ط§ط±ط§ظ‡ ط§ظ†ط§ ط¨ط؛ظٹط¶..ظٹظƒظˆظ† ظپظ‰ ط§ط¹ظٹظ† ظ†ط§ط³ طھط§ظ†ظٹظ‡ ط­ظ„ظ… ظ†ظپط³ظ‡ظ… ظٹظˆطµظ„ظˆظ„ظ‡..

    ط§ظ†ط§ ط¨ط­ط¨ ط§ظ„ظ†ط§ط³ ط¯ظ‰ ط¬ط¯ط§..ظ„ط§ظ†ظ‰ ظ…ظ†ظ‡ظ…..ط§ظ†ط§ ظ„ط§ ط§ط®طھظ„ظپ ظƒطھظٹط± ظ„ظˆظ„ط§ ط±ط­ظ…ط© ط±ط¨ظ†ط§.. ظ„ظƒظ† ظ…ظ† ط¬ظˆط§ ط¬ظˆط§..ط§ظ†ط§ ط²ظ‰ظٹ ط²ظٹظ‡ظ…..ظ…ط¹ط¬ظˆظ†ظ‡ ظˆ ظ…طھط±ط¨ظٹظ‡ ط²ظٹظ‡ظ…..
    ط§ظ„ط­ظ…ط¯ ظ„ظ„ظ‡..ط±ط¨ظ†ط§ ظٹظ‡ط¯ظٹظ†ظ‰ ظˆ ظٹظ‡ط¯ظٹظ‡ظ… ظˆ ظٹطھظ‚ط¨ظ„ظ†ط§ ط¬ظ…ظٹط¹ط§ ظ…ظ† ط¹ط¨ط§ط¯ظ‡ ط§ظ„ظ…ط®ظ„طµظٹظ†..
    ط¹ظ„ظ‰ ظپظƒط±ظ‡ ط¨ط§ط¨ط§ ط¯ظ‡..ظپظٹظ‡ طµظپط§طھ ظ„ظˆ ظˆط²ط¹طھ ط¹ظ„ظ‰ ط¹ط´ط± ط±ط¬ط§ظ„ ط­ظٹظƒظˆظ†ظˆط§ ظˆظ„ط§ ط§ظپط¶ظ„..
    ط§ظ†ط§ ط¨ط¹ط´ظ‚ظ‡..ظˆ ظ‡ظˆ ظ‚ظ„ط¨ظ‡ ط§ظ†ط¶ظپ ظ…ظ†ظ‰ ظˆ ظ…ظ† ظ†ط§ط³ ظƒطھظٹط± ط§ظˆظ‰ ظ…ط´ ظپظ‰ ط§ظ„ظپظ†..ط¹ط´ط§ظ† ظƒط¯ظ‡ ظƒط§ظ† ظ†ظپط³ظ‰ ط§ظ‚ط¹ط¯ ط§ط¨ظˆط³ ط§ظٹط¯ظ‡ ط¹ظ„ظ‰ ط·ظˆظ„ ..

    ط±ط¨ظ†ط§ ظٹط¨ط§ط±ظƒ ظ„ظƒ ظٹط§ ط¹ط¨ط¯ ظˆ ط§ظ†ط§ ظ…طھط´ظƒط±ظ‡ ظ„ظƒ ط¬ط¯ط§..ظ„ظ„ ط§ظ‰ ظ…ظٹظ„ ظƒظ…ط§ظ†..

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  6. Asalam 3alaykom,
    7ala ya 7abebty…motakhayela momken tekoony 7aseety b2eh ..rabena yebarek lek ya a7la 7ala..

    jerusalem,your care and bonding is overwhelming..every word you wrote touched me..jazaky allahu khairan..barak allahu feeky wa thabatek wa zadek eymana.

    Loca ,my dear dear loca..i can never thank you enough..never..
    you are amazing and beautiful and i really love you..ameen for the do3a2 and may allah bless you.

    Neverland,jazaky allahu khairan..great to see you dear and may allah bless you.

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  7. Reading the post kanit 3amla zay el kizb , 3’areeb … this is life after all , ALLAH yir7amo o yinawir 3aleh .. i felt you so when i read those lines …

    "I just kept kissing his hands..kissing his hands..i didn’t want to stop but he would pull it away,i wonder why do they always do that… ya baba let me have your hand..we had an argument two days ago and i felt so so so guilty after this..al7amdlelah..he was loving and raddy 3anny.."

    Always keep up that head up high .. u Add something !!
    love u *

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  8. sub7an allah 3almoot da ya rasha.. koll marra benshoof feeh agat ghareeba wbnefham minno 7agat gedeeda.. bss elmoshkila inno byetnesy bsor3a wn7ess inno b3eed 2wy mahma 2arrab minnena wmin nas 7walena.. bnefdal 3amleen zay elly byetfarrag min elbalakoona!! wzayena zay elnas.. kollo byetfarrag le7ad mayteegy la7za mesh ma3mool 7esabha..
    ella man ra7ema rabby!!
    rbbena yer7amo wyer7amna 7abebty..

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  9. Asalam 3alaykom,
    Thank you fadi
    May allah bless you hemede..

    Mais..that is strange..those two lines and another one were my shaking heart talkin’..they were watered by my tears!!
    ameen ya rab and may allah bless you.

    Eno..ahhhhhhhhh
    Anyone but me!!!
    And when it’s my time..i’ll have people standing thinking..anyone but me!!!!
    may allah keep you safe and bless your life.

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  10. SHAME ON ME .. I didn’t realize I hadn’t commented on this deeply touching post!
    I am sure it is most devastating to lose a loved one so suddenly and then to have to go through such a terrible ordeal during the funeral as well! Some people go for to be seen, for publicity – and not because they mourn … they are to be dispised. You have a most beautiful soul dear … pure, compassionate and caring – and this is what lifts you above them ALL!
    May Allah have merci with the soul of your uncle and take it straight to heaven!
    About your dad … I am sure you’ll be able to work out the differences and he will gtart to reconsider!
    BIG HUG dear … you’re not alone!! 🙂

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