Good old blogging days, again!

Exactly one year ago we celebrated our blogging golden years..2006/2007.

We created, back then, a facebook group that has 82 members now 🙂

I and my friends from around the blogosphere blogged on that day to remember how it was when blogging was “it” and the community was familiar.

My dear friends from around Qwaider planet…from good old “Jeeran” from Jordan, Egypt, Precious Palestine, Lebanon and Syria are still in touch…we read for each other or communicate through facebook but blogging will always be so special and so near.

This year i won’t go all nostalgic…this year our world has changed…and the word NEW is not far any more…this year is about hopes that we believe will come true.

I hope blogging never fades to facebook, video blogging or anything else.

I hope writing online never be censored…i hope it keeps being the free skies we let go of our inhabitants in and just soar free.

I hope we witness successes, accomplishments and value all the way.

Thank you bloggers for reading, sharing and accepting.

Thank you for opening my eyes to a talent i never knew it existed that now I have two books on shelves…who would’ve thought! it’s surreal!

Thank you and I hope next year we still celebrate our good old blogging days 🙂


P.S. dear reader, you are welcomed to join the group (link above) and blog with us…you can post on your blog or in the notes area on the group.


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Last Thursday of exhausting March

Dear Blog,

March has cracked my bones…It has been confusing, exhausting and mind draining…and really tight with the bucks…

But Today is a brilliant day…It ends and takes March with it.

It takes all the waiting…All the confusion…All the back and forth annoying movement between offices, decisions and urges.

March ended and I’m happy that i can mark the end of a 120 days critical phase in my life.

Today, I settled in my work…made up my mind and settled…and I am happy with what Allah gave me…and i will build from there…not build anywhere else.

Today, although i was very worried about my sick mom, Her spirit lifts mine…she is a very courageous lady, don’t know how i forgot that and expected her to stop caring for her health…Inshallah she’ll be fine.

Today, I decided to recall my old forgotten ability to gain friends…for real. i tried to deactivate Facebook (i don’t need virtual communication,,,at least for a while) but i couldn’t as I’ll be deactivating Dad’s page as well…so, i made it a private profile…i don’t wanna read two liners from people…I want to hear from them…I’ll focus on the real people in my life and the real people i would like to earn their new existence.

Today, I will buy a book and read…and I will write as vivid as i did before “news” took over my life…and I will work for causes…and all that with the help and will of Allah.

From now on, I will have fun with my kids…I will listen to old music i love…I will dance and walk down my favorite street.

and I will welcome a new month…a new quarter of the astonishing life changing year of 2011 and i will set new fresh goals…I will enjoy life, love and people…I will fight when i need to and i will relax as often as i can.

I’m glad i have you bloggy…forgive me for looking elsewhere 🙂

A message to friends and friends of friends…

Friends and friends of friends in arab countries like Palestine, Lebanon, Jordan and other countries….

I was puzzled and slightly sad of some reactions towards the current situation in egypt.

My emotions are totally stressed and inflamed so i won’t talk much but rather state my concern straight to the point.

On face book…on blogs…on twitter…some of you and some of your friends reacted in one or many of the following responses:

– a complete cold shoulder and ignoring the subject.

– saying: we have no business in the egyptian business…khaleena fe 7alna.

– mocking the situation…some insulted Egyptians calling the lame or copying Tunis.

– some gloated.

– some blamed their friends for taking a stand or showing heart and compassion to egyptian freedom.

It was hurtful and left me puzzled and asking myself why…

If it’s because the egyptian government played against their causes and screwed their countries, well…yeah it happened but it happened from the very government we are rebelling against…not from the people…on the contrary…when plastanians suffer from their internal situation on daily basis every egyptian support them and we cry blood instead of tears for them…during the Lebanon war and also for Iraq…egyptians demonstarted for them and we would watch the news and cry because we can’t help…and because our government is lame…so…guys around arab countries…egyptian epople was never an enemy…if it’s because you hate egyptian people lelah fe lelah…then ok, at least support freedom as a meaning…

Doesn’t it inspire you?

five years ago i received more than a 100 comment on my jeeran blog supporting me when i was in a painful personal situation!!

five weeks ago bloggers gathered from every country to celebrate the good old blogging days….and now…when millons of people are rebelling against corruption, brutality and injustice…people mention it shamefully or not support it at all.

Anyway…as sad as i am…I am also proud of my courageous friends who call me for support…take the heat from their friends when they speak highly of my revolution…or chose to have a stated opinion rather than a silent one!

Life is good, a tag!


Sharifo, my dear bro. passed me this tag card…this is a nice switch of mood.

I agree, life is good…yeah…it is…i’m trying here…it is good…ok…hello!!


1. If you blog anonymously, are you happy doing this? If you aren’t anonymous, do you wish you started out anonymously, so that you could be anonymous now?
I would never be happy to blog anonymously…tried it once and failed big time…best friends who knew me blew my cover…ask Fadi, he’d tell you 😀

Although i take a lot of heat for my sharp tongue and real opinions, i wouldn’t have it any other way…i’d rather face my faults and other’s than fake idealism in me and others.

2. Describe an incident that shows your inner stubborn side
Hmmm…well…OMG, the thoughts that came to mind!! :S

Lets just say that I’m too stubborn for my own good…among other things 😀

3. What do you see when you really look at yourself in the mirror?
the female version of my father 😀

and some extra pounds…and some qualities i couldn’t have more of and some other qualities i would LOVE to get rid of…b2ekhtesar, one large sac of mixed goods!

And many times i see a tired drained person…but i throw a ball of water on that image and shake away the image then start fresh…all over again.

4. What is your favourite summer cold drink?
ICE TEA baby!

5. When you take time for yourself, what do you do?
a. write stories
b. Watch movies, or TV shows i love
c. practice my art to eat chocolate as slowly as possible
e. I really dig nice conversations with friends

6. Is there something that you still want to accomplish in your life?
YES…many…a whole lot…i wanna be rich and famous and successful and travel the world and enjoy love at its purist forms (my kids my kids my kids)

7. When you attended school, were you the class clown, the class overachiever, the shy person, or always ditching?
I was the chief of the gang…the trouble provoker…the one behind the riots and oh god we had riots!

8. If you close your eyes and want to visualize a very poignant moment in your life, what would you see?
The point when my kids grew enough to hold me when I’m crying and crack me up from laughter when I’m down…we exchange support now 🙂

9. is it easy for you to share your true self in your blog, or are you more comfortable writing posts about other people and events?
It is not easy but my bet is always on the good heart and understanding open mind they have…but then again, even if they weren’t of that type…I feel it’s how i prefer writing and it’s who i am.

10. If you had the choice to sit down and read a book or talk on the phone, which would you do and why?

depends on who I’m talking to on the phone 🙂

If it’s just gossip and blabber…no…a book is way more interesting.

I pass this tag to…umm:

Fadi, Insomniac and Gohary

Going gradient:: – Dreams (by Mais*)

As part of the “good old blogging days 2006/2007”  i am happy to host my dear friend Mais* from the good old days when we used to blog together through Jeeran…when we used to wow each other everyday by words that come from the soul.

Thank you Mais*




Going gradient:: – Dreams


Define it:

  • Attempts, Messages, illusions ….
  • Where you don’t have to dip the truth in sugar.
  • Be a lot of people at the same time.
  • Keep an identity loud and clear.
  • Moments in different accents.
  • Hide and seek.
  • You never know what else…

            Everything holds up something.

 Bite it:

You Are [A delighted cube. of sugarUnique as a pearl]]

Be careful what you wear to bed at night, you never know who you’ll meet in your dreams.”

Love it:

[What does he fill to her left side …] a Dream…

You are never too old to set another goal or to dream a new dream.”


Hate it:

[To people like you, your analog of my own personality lacks your confidence.

In simple words … I am sure I don’t like you!!]I Miss you sometimes ??!

He laughs at my dreams, but I dream about his laughter. ”




Good Old Blogging Days *Event*

And I have an announcement to make:

But let me give you some flashback, It all started when I tweeted about the good old blogging days back in 2006/2007, Abed tweeted the same and shouted out for the gold bloggers of that era…a couple of days later i invited my fellow friends/bloggers who were on my old Macbook account to post again together, on the same day.

Some of them don’t have blogs any more and i was really not optimistic that i’d find them excited…but, to me surprise, almost each one of them replied and they were excited and i know it will be a very special day…

Who never knew blogging back then surely didn’t know blogging…i can assure you 🙂

So…we’re bringing a hint of it back…

It is an open invitation to old fellow bloggers from that Era…

Tuesday 21st, we will host previous bloggers, we will post on blogs and on the event page on face book, check it out:

Good Old Blogging Days 2006/2007

Till now we have: Mais, Hala T., Hamede, Fadi K., Lama, Ola, Abed, Sharifo…and hopefully many more would join us soon.

Check out the event, like it and you can post to the wall, join discussions, post articles and more.

Make sure you check the event on Tuesday 21 st December, when blogging turns to gold…again!

Facebook Trash!!!

I am fed up with the amount of dirt, the amount of moral contamination and the amount of dumb contradictions in life, that i really wish i could set fire in every nasty person i encounter.

But facebook, collected everything in life and symbolizes how deteriorated humans have become, especially in this country, right in front of our eyes.

Best thing about my page, although i deactivate it most of the time, is that there’s no one there but friends that i have known quite well.

and i have like 40 people all together…and i don’t accept random adds.

Wanna know what intrigued this angry post??

Well, take a look: i received an add request from some guy i don’t know…i opened his page to re-check if i knew him and i found this page and i left him a comment and of course declined the add:

The guy posts about and uses a full covered face veiled woman as his profile image.

The guy posts about no TV in ramadan, no smoking and about veil and women’s proper clothing from him -MESSED UP- point of view.

That pic. i have taken doesn’t show about 15 other women in underwear and/or sleeping on a bed half-naked.

I am fed up men “nagaset” eldemagh de…

If he was ordinary, without the veil picture, without the preaching i wouldn’t have gone mad…i am no nun nor a saint…i mess up like all people…but,

I freakin’ stopped preaching a long time ago honestly when i felt i wasn’t up to that standard.

What the hell is wrong with people?!

I write a story on my other blog about sex and how it affects men and women…i write about women being messed up by men and still chapters ahead i will write about men and how do they perceive the whole sexy mama’s things…as i know that sex occupies 70% if not even more from the male mind…and probably the female as well…

I know for a fact that polluted minds, diminished morals and sick  souls take sex, that god creation for man kind to produce…well..and have fun…they take it and wreck houses, hurt people, and act like pigs.

I wrote about that many times and i will keep on writing as i can’t just lock up every male pants or put barbwire around every female pair of legs…all i can do is write…scream…and tell people to love and have fun but with purity, dignity and decency.

How hard could that be!!!!

A tip from the golden eyed plus some more…

Well, when i decided that i need a vacation from blogging, it was meant to be till the end of the month…i dared myself to not write for that long…i needed to take time off from venting every thought here on my dear blog and just live the venting and experience its pressure.

I decided, again, that the ten days off were enough (yeah, I’m a very fast paced person) and that i should bookmark how the vacation was.

It wasn’t like i have taken time off thinking…It was just time off venting through words privately on my blog and doing so under many layers of innuendos and vagueness.

Result was, lots of emotional confrontations, many scattered unexplained tears and much confusion.

Apparently blogging eases what goes on from the inside through virtual venting, but truth is…we all have to switch off the computer and go to bed some time…then we wake up the next morning with only reality ready to bite our behinds while saying “good morning sucker”

I can write all i want and use metaphors and hide between the lines but fact is, i am doing nothing to face the reality and i am really not handling my issues.

Sweet virtual outlet  may be my best friend, but it won’t actually help unless i combine it with a real tangible act of presence.

And here i am…after neglecting my best friend and confronting the chaos in my head, which is something far from being comforting…here i am returning to a friend that i will tame for my best interest.

vacation resolutions:

– Creativity and passion: their true meaning and benefit lie in them being exercised vividly without time frames, expectations or an irrelevant goal…bel3arabi, passion is not a passion if used as a distraction or a painkiller!

– Ownerships: as long as “it” breathes, “it” is not ownable…period!

– Imitators are poor…whatever they do…whoever applauds them…whereever they can reach.

– Allah is complete…we are not…but our faith should be…regardless of our mistakes…our faith should always be complete, to be considered true.

– I may be sick of pretenders, but i will not shut them out…we all need each other to cure.

– Inner Peace is the most precious thing in this life…not love not money not kids not power…peace!

– Everyone has to earn their essentialism in my life…even her! and that should be a given, yet the new thing is: i am not swallowing shit silently any more and let whoever has a problem with that learn to have my guts and discuss like sane rational people should do…it is actually contaminating to live among muted wusses!

– People dare to gather an opinion about other people. an opinion that they decide to discuss with anyone but the person whom it concerns…people dare to judge behind back and discuss other people’s matters with their friends over hot dishes and fizzy drinks…a couple of curses should be placed here but know what, no one should care.

What I’ve been up to:

Well, the usual plus some more..

I am fighting everyday to keep my kids safe, polite and happy.

I am loving this fight and intrigued by it…I wish i could deliver how i view parenting to every mother i could reach but i know that most mothers are probably way better than me and the few who are not won’t listen nor feel but on their own when and if the right time comes.

I am having three totally different ideas about business and should any of them comes true for me, i would be extremely happy.

I am making some minor changes that should refresh the life routine.

and i am singing more than before, on track with my book and enjoying what  life brings and doing my very best one day at a time; a needed tip from my dear golden eyed husband 🙂